18 2 / 2013
i remember back when i was in college, i used to cook all the time. I felt relaxed when i was in the kitchen chopping away and then seeing the grin on people’s faces after they’ve had a meal made by me. but ever since ive moved to NY ive just felt so claustrophobic in my kitchen that i stopped cooking all together. not to mention, cooking for one is never fun. I am a tiny girl with a small appetite…so when i cook for myself i either have to eat the same thing for the rest of the week or the food goes bad before i can finish it and it ends up in the trash.
But this morning, i woke up and thought to myself….this morning i am going to make whatever the hell i want just for me.
im definitely still adjusting to whats its like to truly focus on myself. its been…5 years since i’ve truly been single. thats a scary thought to be able to live my life without having to ever consider someone elses feelings and just be me. i think that over the years ive lost at lot of my confidence and motivation because i was afraid of being judged and thought i was not good enough. today forward, i want to work on being the person i was before without worrying about exposing my weakness.
17 2 / 2013
what are you giving up for lent? 40 days to really challenge yourself to overcome some of your biggest weaknesses…ive thought long and hard about what would be the best thing for me right now and i settled with: Facebook and relationships.
1) relationships - i know this is so cliche of me saying, ” i want to spend time just pleasing myself and do what makes me happy” but its true. I want to spend some time away from needing someone there for me at all time. someone that i can always rely on for anything. its been a long time coming, so this will be a true test to myself on being independent. at least im in new york so i can keep myself busy and focus on my job and go out and meet friends. no dating please…thought of even putting myself out there again frightens me.
2) facebook….i wish i had a log on how much time i spend on that thing. ahhh its toxic. im constantly looking at my notification and wondering what he’s doing. i guess its sad to admit it, but in order for me to start over, i need to take a break from the social media world just to have some time to not worry about what everyone else is doing.
Lets see how this goes….
30 12 / 2011
“We all know it intuitively and have heard it said many times before: “some relationships are for a season, some are for a reason and others are forever”, yet it still hurts when we realize it personally. 2011 has taught me that the people you started 2011 with are not always the ones that will be with you when it ends. People in your life typically do one of four things: 1) develop you for what is coming 2) introduce a challenge or opportunity to go to the next level 3) reveal a deficiency in your life that needs to be fixed 4) accompany you on life’s journey and strengthen you when you need it. In 2012 focus on creating quality relationships with people around you, invest the time necessary to do it. But also let people play their role in your life. “
I couldnt agree more to the statement above. Everyone that i am going into the new year with were not there with me last year. Of course in some way that makes me sad since im not with my closest friends and family, however i wouldnt have it any other way. ive met some amazing friends here in brazil and i couldnt imagine spending NYE with a better group of friends.
Im heading to Rio tonight to spend NYE on Copacabana beach. :D I’m super excited…definitely have to go into the new year on a high note…I can’t wait!
for those that are spending it with the special someone :) I hope you all get that one special kiss to bring you good luck in the new year!!
p.s. I just have a feeling that 2012 is going to be a great year…
p.p.s. happy one year to the “i love yous”
27 12 / 2011
something about holding another person’s hand just gives me butterflies.
i have the tendency to hold other people’s arms, wrists, fingers…but rarely their hand. something about hand holding..is very personal to me. i know it sounds really childish, but i always get this tingle when the person i really like holds my hands. the whole fingers locking deal…and the kiss on the hand…very nice. i miss it.
:) there you go..thats what makes me nervous when im with the person i like.
17 12 / 2011
Another year already??? I now understand why older people say as you age the years all seems to blend in together. 2011 absolutely flew by…I would say up to now, this has been the most exciting year of my life.
This was a year full of wonderful mistakes and terrible right choices. None of which I regret…its definitely made me “one year older and one year wiser.” Cliché…but true.
new years resolution:
- sign up for a half marathon in NY
- eat at top restaurants in NYC
- ^^ still need to go to the gym
- start cooking/baking again (new dish a month??)
- do a better job at keeping in touch with old friends
- learn to treat myself out once in a while
- travel to at least 3 new countries
- visit home more often
- let people go
- dont please others, make myself happy.
12 12 / 2011
so i have been terrible about keeping up with this travel blog of mine…instead ive use this as an outlet for graphics and random rants. Sorry readers (if i even had any). However i do want to update a blog about the trip that i just recently had with my parents :)
i really dont remember the last time we went on a trip just the three of us. i remember when i was younger i used to dread going on family vacations because I always end up doing things with my parents that I didn’t want to do (im the only child btw). However this time around, I really did appreciate every minute we got to spend together. I mean really…the chances that I get to travel to another country with my parents are limited and even then to spend a whole week without worrying about work or anything else..extra rare.
Anyways…first stop: Iguassu Falls—waterfalls of the iguazu river located at the border of Brazil and Argentina. This was hands down the best place ive been to in
Latin America ever. It was absolutely incredible to witness such a spectacular “wonder of the world.” Apparently its been named as one of the new 7 wonders of the world—well deserved. We first went to the argentina side of the falls where you are able to get up close to the falls and literally be in the “throat of the falls.” Also I decided that since we were already there..might as well take the boat tour and go right up to the water. It was such an adventure and I can tell my parents really enjoyed it as well. The next day we went to the brazil side of the falls. At first I thought it wasn’t going to be that spectacular since we already saw it the day before, but I would def. recommend ppl to go to both sides. Argentina side you were def able to feel like you are a part of the waterfall..but Brazil’s side was just breathtaking. You get to see the falls from afar and really appreciate its beauty. I think I prefer Brazil’s side more actually because I was able to get that panoramic view of everything. Either way..this place is a must visit!\
RIORIORIO! Wow finally I made my way around brazil and landed in Rio! Ever since I found that I was coming to brazil, everyone has been telling me that I have to go to Rio. And after watching movies like Rio (the cartoon one with the birds) and Fast Five..i couldn’t wait. I followed my handy tour guide and made my way through the city and was able to hit up all the top spots. Keep in mind that I had a solid 5 days here, I was able to visit the Christ redeemer, jardin botanical, sugar loaf, centro, santa Teresa, Copacabana, and ipanema. I understand now why people say rio is one of the most beautiful cities. The view from atop the Christ and the sugar loaf mts were incredible. I can definitely see myself vacationing here again in the future….speaking of which I think im going to return for new years!
i think my dad said something really funny when he took the picture, i couldnt stop laughing..ha
top of the sugarloaf mts.
Occupy Rio in downtown
im sucha daddy’s girl :)
great way to end the trip. How cute.